Depression

I'm going through a bad time, mentally, at the moment and have been for about two weeks. It started with a dream I had only it didn't seem like a dream, it was so vivid that I thought it could have been me seeing into my future. Yes you're all thinking I'm on drugs or something but, I am not under any illicit substances. The dream ended with me sitting in a doorway on a street in Glasgow and I looked along the street and saw my wife walking and when she passed me I said something to her but she completely ignored me, I woke up immediately and felt like the world was on my shoulders and squeezing the life out of me. It sounds like a bit of exaggeration but that was how I felt. I told my wife about it and she asked me if I thought she was seeing someone else, I assured her no I didn't believe that. Truth be told, I did think that. It's been playing on my mind constantly since.

Deep down I do believe her. There is one thing I haven't mentioned, I am taking medication to slow down Pulmonary Fibrosis but mental problems are not mentioned in the side effects list. 

What next, I don't really know. 

I will update this in the near future.

26 Feb, 2026. My wife and I had a long talk and she was very understanding about my thoughts notwithstanding that I thought, wrongly, that she was seeing someone else. She has never lied to me and I know that is true, anyway, we talked for a while and the good news is, everything is better, I have woken up and realised that I have a lovely wife who loves me. Whatever that dream was, I take it as a wake-up call to me. We're doing more things together now and we're going on a cruise in four weeks time. We haven't had a holiday for a while. 

I will keep updating and turning it from negative to purely positive happenings.